♠ I doubt there's hardly ever a way for someone to prepare themselves for bad news. I mean, really, really bad news. Things have been quite horrible around here lately, but I can only hope that everyone involved, Oshitari-senpai and those close to him specifically, get through it some way or another. I feel rather helpless myself, not sure what to say, or how to behave around them. I try to be just me, but what if I come off as too distant, or maybe not empathic enough, or am I being too concerned, that I'm smothering them? I don't know, it's difficult to know, as finding just that right balance can be hard, really hard. I know I haven't been good at commenting properly in their journals, and since that's only over the internet, I guess it's all well and good, but I find it difficult to speak with them in school and during practice as well. Maybe because things have been a bit strained between me and Oshitari-senpai since that failed recital... So, maybe I come off as cold. I would just like to take this moment to clarify that I'm not. I'm just as confused as everybody else.

♠ I guess life's short. That's one thing I've come to realize, so that means no time dallying around. First thing I have to do is decide what I want to do with my life. That one's simple; I want to become an author. Japan has a long history of literature, and I want to contribute to that as well. I don't want to give up my music either, but I think those two professions could be well balanced if only I put my mind to it. Second thing I should do is tell the person I'm in love with how I feel. I know the object of my affection don't return my feelings, or rather, I'm fairly sure of it, but I still want to tell that person, so I can stop beating around the bush, because it's starting to get annoying.

♠ It's a pity Sirius Black doesn't exist in real life. I approve. A lot.